Deuteronomy 2:3 You have circled this mountain long enough; turn
I heard this verse preached recently. The pastor talked about
mountains we circle but need to “turn northward” and move on. The
“mountain of negative thinking” was the one that stopped me in my
tracks. I’ve worked hard to overcome the “mountain of fear” and do
fairly well with the “mountain of comparison” (at least I know it’s a
mountain!) but the “mountain of negative thinking”…hmmmmm, I was
not sure I wanted to deal with that one.
I listened to the rest of her brilliant sermon, knowing God was going to
convict me of circling that mountain but that conviction never came. I
was dead set on thinking I “deserved” to have negative thoughts. While
I know my life is blessed, there are some really hard days, “I didn’t sign
up for this” days and I kept thinking “I’m being authentic in my
thoughts and verbalizing those thoughts to my husband and my best
friend”. I couldn’t hear the conviction.
Then I remembered. I remembered that my thoughts become words.
Words have the power of life and death, my thoughts and words set
the tone in my home and I have five people who count on me to be
their biggest fan. I have told them “I am your biggest fan” many times.
How can I continue with my negative thoughts AND be a cheerleader,
an encourager? The truth is that I can’t. I must “turn northward” and
leave this mountain. I am choosing to replace those negative thoughts
when they come, and I know they’ll come, with praise and
encouragement, with joy and love. I am turning northward.